The Dark Tunnel

The Dark Tunnel

What if one day I get up and find out there is nothing to do at all?

It won’t be a day wherein I could feel happy to say, “Yeah! Nothing to do. I am free today.”

It’s a day with bleak weather- I happen to realize there is nothing else remaining for me to do.
Everything has ended. I have lost so many things. I have tried countless things. I could look back to my past clearly. The path from the past to the present has made me conclude that my life is all messy. The impenetrable darkness has gone inside my soul and there is no space left for any positive signs. I have turned into a cold-hearted person. I have no feelings for anyone. I reached that level of life, wherein I can’t let anyone else be a part of my world. I feel the world has drained from me. The evil thoughts have arisen in my mind. I can only regret the mistakes, not done by me, but done by others which led me to suffer. I could have blamed everyone around me, by now I chose not to blame anyone. Because for now, I am in a state of blaming myself for always compromising my own life. For the number of times, all my dreams shattered with no hopes further. Abided by all the surrounding rules, I could not achieve anything. Being crumpled with a stroke of bad luck, I could not get any answers for, “Why me ???”.


I often restored my hopes to start a new beginning, but my every journey landed up to “The End” board with no success. Having failed for hundreds of times, I did not feel bad for rejections and failures anymore. I don’t know what is the feeling of happiness for being successful in life. Maybe, if ever I reach a successful point, I would shed more tears by recalling the failure times. I would be more nervous and hold fear to cherish the success moment. Doubtless, I am tired and downtrodden. I could imagine brighter days on the way. Alas! With not much of a span, I find myself being involved with innumerable issues.Β 
Whenever someone asked me, “What’s wrong?”; I could fake smile and tell them nothing. At most, I could share one of the smallest ordinary issues. The truth holds as nothing was/is right.Β  I could only wish some magic to fix everything at once for all. My life did not go the way I planned in multiple ways, but at this stage I am fine. At a certain point in time, we accept that some things cannot be changed and often are out of one’s control. People who know my journey tide with hurdles; know somewhere it is okay if I stop going ahead. It is true: negativity must not become part of life, but sometimes on a practical basis: negativity wins over positivity. We have to balance the positive and negative vibes equally.

 

 

I wish I would wake up one day and realize my whole life had been a dream and I am actually a different person living a different life. Perhaps, a much better life wherein I could be me, myself !!!

I wrote this blog post to express what I felt at that moment. I was not in a depression. My feelings were based on real situations. Through this article, many people could relate to it. This post is to show how a depressed person feels. It depicts how crushed a person feels when everything goes against her/his life. We see people who lack empathy. People who do not take other’s emotions easily. People who are unable to understand someone’s emotion. We do come across the ones who will not realize what willpower it takes for going through the hurdles. I genuinely feel we should not break anyone to the extent that they lose the meaning to their life. When we see someone’s life is falling apart, we shall try to lend a hand to uplift them in order to kick start life again.


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  1. “I wish, I would woke up one day and realize my whole life had been a dream and I am actually a different person living a different life.” – I can relate. Happens to me quite often. The only thing to do is keep moving, though, and make the best out of what’s given… as much as it hurts. A great post by the way!

    1. Hi Shubhi…..thats Very touching….the law of nature is day followed by night….so it is with life….joy follows grief…grief follows joy.

  2. Just look around you and see what you can improve to make your life better. Take decisions and act on them. It’s hard to fight with depression but you have to keep fighting, the moment you let go, it wins. And you don’t want that!

    1. Yes Joanna I am fighting.Its difficult to fight when surrounded with negative ones . I am being positive and trying to make best. Wrote this blog to express feelings πŸ™‚ Thank You Joanna πŸ™‚

  3. There are times when I feel like this too, I have severe depression and sometimes I question the point of my presence and why I was put on this earth when I have received so much misfortune but then I think to myself we need to embrace the life we have because it is so short. Hope you are feeling better now?

    1. Yes everyone goes through this feelings many a times throughout life and somehow I tried to put it in words.Yes indeed we need to embrace the life we have πŸ™‚

  4. Just don’t let the negativity win! We all have our ups and downs and battles but we have to keep going and keep trying – it will pay off in the end. Just take it one moment or one day at a time πŸ™‚

  5. If you have lost so many things, there are still things you should be grateful for. It is well know that a positive thought is the seed of a positive result. A good book/movie that will change your mind is The Secret. Take care

  6. I like to sit down with friends during such times. I want to recommend on of my blog to you because of the last statement you made here – “Perhaps a much better life wherein I could be me, myself !!!” You can be yourself RIGHT NOW – just need to start connecting with your ‘true self’ first. πŸ™‚
    Here is how I recommend doing it – http://www.gavachpalea.com/journal/true-self

    1. Even I like to be with friends. Unfortunately I don’t have friends living in the same city.Although we are in touch πŸ™‚ I will surely read your post …

  7. Yes positivity in any way can help and also this blog to express your opinion also helps

  8. I know you have probably heard this before and I do not mean to sound like I’m trying to tell you what to do and how to feel, but from experience I know for a fact that nothing changes and improved in our lives unless we start appreciating what we have.

    A 17 years old Bulgarian boy recently made a video and the final line of it was: if you wake up tomorrow and everything you have is the things you fell asleep feeling grateful for, what will you have?

  9. Its much easier said than done when people encourage you to be positive. I’m one for letting things get to me and they lead me down a negative path, but where I have noticed this I can change it. I’ve chosen positivity and will try to find the silver lining behind everything even in the bad. Sorry to hear you are feeling so down but one thing I always remember is how blessed I am even in my times of trial. There are people out there wishing for the lives we live whilst we take them for granted. We choose our happiness, you can overcome this negativity. http://www.mylifeinrosetintedglasses.wordpress.com

    1. Yup Chesskaaanels I have overcome negativity.”try to find the silver lining behind everything even in the bad. ” that’s really nice thing and I follow same thing except sometimes its okay to take our own time and I made my attempt to express same into words πŸ™‚ Thank you again πŸ™‚

      1. Oh yes of course take your time it has to be in your own time! I’m glad that by writing you have an outlet to help πŸ™‚

  10. Great post, sorry to here things are down at the minute, stay positive, optimism can go a long way bu so can talking to people about your feelings and problems. No matter what you are going through try and stay true to yourself and be you πŸ™‚

    1. yes indeed true its always good to be true to yourself πŸ™‚ Thank You yes being positive πŸ™‚

  11. There are times when we feel the same and it is completely alright if we feel so. The beauty of life is in its valleys and mountains. Isn’t it?

    1. Exactly and that’s what the post is all about it is completely alright if we feel so πŸ™‚

  12. Sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. I hope that writing about it on your blog makes you feel a little bit better at least. Take each day as it comes and try to do a little something positive each day!

  13. You have a gift of writing. A lot of times it’s easy to say that we should take accountability for our own happiness, but I’m sure it’s more complicated than that. Things are in our control sometimes but not all the time. It’s best to learn how to cope and manage our feelings when situations seem a bit down. I feel like that’s what writing is to you. Continue to do it and I hope things will look up for you. πŸ™‚

    1. This is was the most understandable comment on this post so far. Thanks a lot Julie .Also thank you for encouraging me to continue writing πŸ™‚

  14. One thing at a time, one day at a time, that’s all we need to do. Sometimes we just need a break.

  15. I know exactly how you feel, I always question my existence and have so many whys and how unfair things are. But in the end of the day we have to embrace who we are and what we have even though sometimes is very hard even impossible to think. Get out and try to connect with people could bring you more light and positivity.

  16. In the internal battle between both my positive and negative self I always cheer for the positive to be victorious….I am also rooting for your positive self as well.

  17. Negativity is such a powerful emotion leaving one so often feeling helpless and unable to find positives. I hope soon the positives over power the negatives. You are right sometimes you need to just have a break from it all though. By stepping back one can sometimes find the positives burst their way through. Take care.

  18. Remain positive and optimistic – it’s the best chance we all have πŸ™‚

  19. Wow very emotional text which has a different meaning for everyone of us!

  20. This is very brave from you to share your feelings with everyone! The fact that you can call or name your problem is the first step to solve everything πŸ™‚

  21. I’ve battled depression since I was about 13, I know this feeling. Luckily, I found out that through positivity and my faith- I don’t have those bad days like that as often.

  22. Yes, I think sometimes that it would be great to wake up one day and actually have a whole different life, but that life would most likely have its own set of struggles and issues that I have not even imagined. Therefore, I guess I will just have to be content with living the life that I have been given! It’s really not so bad and could actually be a lot worse! πŸ˜‰

  23. Thank you for your post. It was very insightful I actually feel the same sometimes. Especially If I’ve had a rough day. Thanks for this post.

  24. Laura x Loves says:

    Im really sorry for what you’re going through. I just wanted to say that your so brave for actually sharing how you feel with others, and letting it out! Its great that you have your blog where you can finally be yourself and share whatever you feel – along with being able to connect with others. I truly hope things start looking up for you soon! Sending lots of good vibes and virtual hugs your way xoxo

  25. Life is short and then we die… but it’s all here..

  26. When ever I feel a little down, It helps me to think positive 😁

  27. Life is a journey and we have to take the best of it… even if it’s hard. xx

  28. Interesting read, well written! I am not here to tell you the way you are thinking is wrong, but if it makes you unhappy and you want to change, it has to start within your perspective in all things… the way a person views the world and themselves is very important to feel happy and fulfilled! Positive thoughts surround you with positivity, negative thoughts drowned you in negativity. I too have had a lot of hard times, very hard times, but I choose to focus on the positive things and memories so that I can live in peace and happiness. I wish you the best of luck in life.
    take care!

  29. journeyfreak says:

    Nicely written from an interesting psychological perspective. Positivity is key to finding happiness πŸ™‚ Sometimes writing is a great outlet. Wish you the best! Cheers

  30. This is such a nice read! Makes you think more about life and what it really is.

  31. Such an interesting read. So inspirational. Thank you πŸ™‚

    Ami xxx

  32. nocely written! writing is therapeutic in more ways than you can imagine!

    1. Cristina Coroiu says:

      Wish you all the luck in your self love journey. Whenever you feel down you should remember your accomplishments and what a better person you are today than yesterday. And also watching a funny/favorite show helps as well.

  33. That would be something, wouldn’t it?
    I would love to wake up to find that I’m a witch with magical powers!

  34. Yup, I do love reading novels. It’s one of my favorite things to do. I always have a book nearby.

  35. It’s always good to look around us and try to improve ourselves πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘πŸΌ…trying to be positive is always a good thing for ourselves πŸ˜ƒ

  36. i think a lot of people have these feelings from time to time. i typically tell people i’m fine when i’m feeling down. I do try my best to control my own happiness, but it’s not always enough.

  37. That last line of waking up and realising it was all a dream, so often do I wish that. It’s a hard place to be.

  38. Raina Ross says:

    Sometimes life is about the journey which includes the times we fail, or feel sad. And that is okay. What is important is that we hang in there and find something to look forward to every day.

  39. I would do something I like everyday and make it a routine, such as go to the gym, taking good care of myself and have all the positve energy fill up and start work for the day.

  40. If there’s anything that I regret, it’s not realizing my mother’s manipulations. I fell into her traps and schemes. I could have lived my life differently if I didn’t let her control me. ~Sigrid

  41. There is always light at the end of a tunnel, it may not seem it at times – take care x

  42. I find that there is always good in the bad. We tend to focus on only the negative and forget any piece of positive that may be around us. Something as simple as hearing a bird sing a beautiful song or I am not freezing my butt off today are things that can help turn everything down, up. I suffer from depression, although it has been a while since I have had a depressive spell, and I find that meditation helps clear my mind as well as exercising regularly.

  43. Alexandra Cook says:

    I adore reading novels. I try to read at least one a month as of right now.

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